I started in worship. Thinking of an assignment given to me by my counselor. “Self-work” is difficult when you’re searching your soul and heart. This is what I painted in worship while thinking about how I view myself and how God actually views me.
I see myself lowly, with low self-confidence, as if I’m not enough sometimes, as in the shadows viewing myself from the past, but God sees me “Big.” A man of God. His child. Loved and valued by Him. I have to see myself in His light as a man with confidence in front of others, in public, in critiques, -basically I have to apply how God sees me in all aspects of my life. I can no longer walk in the shadows of my past or in the way I view myself.
Here’s what I painted:
So today was Counseling.
I didn’t want to share a story.
So glad I did.
Healing is taking place.
Memories are being healed.
Traumatic events are being renewed.
Fear and terror will be no more.
God sits on his throne.
Calls me son.
Purple emanates hope.
Yellow shows light.
When things seem dark:
I see purple and yellow.
Sometimes I see yellow and green.
These to me-
Are colors of hope.
No matter what I’ve done.
God sees me as his son.
God sees me as his child.
No matter what I do He doesn’t hate me.
He loves me.
His love is overwhelming.
He chose to have His Son die for us.
He loves us.
We are righteous.
We are children of God.
Not condemned, but cherished.
Not shamed, but loved.
Was having a rough night. Thinking about a few things and God took me to Psalm 42:5-6 … “Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you in turmoil within me? HOPE -in- God; for I shall again praise Him, my Salvation and my God.”
My little sprout came into my life.
Growing into a new “pup.”
A doodle after worship service at United Church in Asheville, N.C.
“The Holy Spirit was given to us as a gift. He breathes into us.”
Was in worship yesterday at church service. After worship I doodled this:
The wind of the Lord was there. His presence was there. Winds of His grace.
-A quick release. I was sitting in the quiet on my porch and I saw the Father hold me while He was crying. He loves me.
Forgives your iniquities.
Heals all your diseases.
-No reason to doubt God.